Well, my plans changed for Easter weekend. My aunt and uncle ended up at my parent’s house for Easter eve night. My in-laws came up Saturday morning. We had lunch with Scott, did a little shopping and they drove me and Emma back to Fort Mill. We stayed with ILs and went to church up there. Emma was a doll in her dress. I put her hair up with a bow and it was so cute! Scott worked all weekend so he didn’t go.
I still haven’t been sick, only a little queasy sometimes in the afternoon. Smells are bothering me more than normal still. For some reason the smell of Emma’s green beans were abhorrent this afternoon.
I really have to admit here that I am so not into this pregnancy like I was with Emma. Someone asked me how far along I was on Sunday and I couldn’t remember. Is this just because I stay so busy with Emma? I don’t know. I sort of have this feeling like I don’t want the baby to steal my attention from Emma. Like we have Emma, what else could we need? I am sure as soon as the baby gets here my love will “grow” but right now Emma is filling it all up and I don’t know how I’ll cut in half for another one. Gosh, this sounds horrible, but I know others have felt this way. Scott doesn’t seem to understand. He gets the “doubling of heart” instead of “cutting in two of heart”. I just know I give a lot of attention to Emma and no matter what, I won’t be able to give the same level to her anymore and that makes me really sad. I don’t ever want to tell her to wait, that I’m having to care for another baby and I know that’s going to happen and I know that’s good for her but I just can’t stand the thought of her feeling slighted. 🙁 Have I mentioned I’m already feeling weapy?
I know exactly what you mean. I have the same kind of concerns with Lily. It’s going to be tricky at first but it’ll all work out. My plan is to enlist her help as much as possible. And in the meantime I am getting in all manner of quality time with her.