I realized that I talk about the girls often on here but don’t talk much about me. I guess a lot of what I do these days is just keep up with the girls. But, recently, I have been doing more me centered things. We joined the Y last month and I have gone consistently for 4 weeks now. I’m really proud of myself. I am back down to 120lbs, which is supposedly my goal weight. I don’t want to lose anymore weight but I would like to shift it around some and move some of the weight to my muscles and lose some more fat in my belly. I can tell going to the Y even only for a month has helped in my stamina. I actually ran a mile on the treadmill there last week for the first time probaby since high school. Or, I don’t know if ever. I’ve always hated to run. But jogging at the Y while watching tv or listening to the radio has been very relaxing to me. I do enjoy the classes I go to, Cardio Dance and Rock Bottom. They are getting somewhat, I guess, easy for me and I need to step it up. I would love to have some Madonna arms! And the classes I go to don’t really help with that. My main point in going though is to reduce my cholesterol. I’m hoping at my physical in the spring it will have paid off.
I have also been studying my bible a lot. I have been doing my own little study of different sins. Anger, jealousy, pride, lust, etc. Stuff like that. It’s been quite enlightening and I’ve learned stuff I haven’t learned in the 20 years of being a Christian. It was quite amazing the EXACT thing I studied last week is what my sunday school teacher taught in class. I mean, similar verses and everything. It was a bit overwhelming actually.
One thing I learned is a struggle quite a bit with pride. It causes lots, actually, most, of the other problems I have. I never would have thought that I had a pride problem, but I do. And I think after careful consideration, most people would see they do too. We all think we deserve it, need it now, our way, etc. It’s all about us. Anyway, so that is leading me to struggle a little bit with needing recognition from those around me. Specifically, a guy at work. I don’t have any trouble with wanting to be with him, per se. But I do enjoy the compliments and even just our conversations. I know I have to be careful to not let that lead to anything else. I mean, it’s not anywhere near anything other than friendly but I just don’t want it to go anywhere else. But I really do enjoy his friendship. And I think that’s ok as long as I leave it there. Scott knows all this so it’s not like I’m hiding anything!
So I keep thinking about teaching a Sunday School at church. And then my sunday school teacher says to Scott yesterday, Amy should teach a Sunday School class. Nice. So I’m not sure where that’s going to lead to. I guess to teaching a Sunday School class.
Finances are not going so well these days. We had a bunch of money saved up for Christmas and then the girls’ birthdays happened and now we don’t. I’m selling some stuff on ebay and selling his weight bench and trying to work overtime at work. I think I might even roll some coins :). I’ve only bought one Christmas present so I’ve got to get in gear!