Lately I have been starting to get, I don’t know, panicky, about Emma becoming 4 this year. It’s still over 6 months away but 4 just isn’t a baby anymore. It isn’t even a toddler and it’s almost not even a preschooler! And she stays so busy during the week, I’m feeling lately like I barely get to see her. Sunday we are at church. Which means we leave at 9:30 and I don’t usually pick her up from her class until 12:30. At that point, we normally rush off to lunch and if we are going with his parents, she wants to ride in their van. Then after lunch she normally spends the afternoon at one of our parents. Usually my mom because she watches the kids for me for choir practice if Scott is working. Anyway, so then it’s back to church in the evening. Monday morning is school and I’m working in the afternoon. Tuesday I do get her all day. Wednesday morning is school and then MIL comes and gets her. Thursday I get her. Friday Mom gets her and ususally Lexi too. Friday night she stays with MIL and then she usually keeps her until Saturday at dinner time. Then the cycle starts all over. That means I only get her on Tuesdays and Thursdays (when I’m working) and whatever craziness we do in the evenings during the week. That means we don’t really get any good one on one time. So I’m starting to feel really protective over where she goes and for how long. I haven’t stopped her from going anywhere yet. But I was happy she stayed home this Friday. And Lexi I think has the croup again and the 3 of us stayed home from church this morning since Scott is working. I really hate to miss church because my week just doesn’t seem to go right without it and I really feel at a loss without it but I am enjoying just hanging out at the house with our jammies on and I don’t have to worry about working or cleaning. I used to be almost happy to send Emma off with folks. She obviously enjoys it very much and it was a much needed respite for me with a little one around. But now that Emma is getting older and things seem to really have an affect on her and I know her time is just going to get more busy, I’m just feeling a little overwhelmed! Where’s my baby??