it’s wednesday and i’m posting. surprise!
Scott has been working really, really hard the past few days on the house. Our friends brought the tractor came and dug up the back yard on Friday. Scott has been working to haul away the remnants of that as well as the front yard where we cut down the tree and are leveling out the ground there to plant grass so he can park his patrol car there.
On a side note, I’ve seen improvement in our relationship. I’ve determined that I should keep the house clean for my own pride and responsibility instead of in fear of his displeasure. If I’m always cleaning for him, it’s always going to be disappointing for me and him and I’ll always have a chip on my shoulder about it. I should keep my house clean because I live there and I should have enough respect and pride for myself to want to live in a nice, clean house. And he seems to have learned to hold back any criticisms and smart-alecky responses that he says just because he can. I’ve found myself wanting to be nicer to him and help him more. Which I think he appreciates. Somewhere along the way we lost just enjoying to be together and wanting to help each other out. Everything seemed to be an argument and a struggle and every criticism just heaped on more bitterness. Hopefully we’re turning that around. I feel like we are and that’s good.
Today is the girls’ last day of school. They are having a picnic with games and activities at the school. Emma will miss Ms. Dawn and Ms. Jeri Lyne and I know Lexi will miss Ms. Terri and Ms. Kay. Emma will always be Emma B. (Bee Dot) because of Emma F in her class. And this will be the first year she said she had a boyfriend at school. And she’s played dr and she’s the “boss” of the class, having “all the ideas”. And Lexi after 2 weeks of crying found a second home. One that she runs to and goes to sleep just to be at the next morning. I’m so glad we decided for them both to go this year. I have them scheduled for 4 days a week next year and it will be Emma’s last year before “big school”. I can’t believe that! They did a height chart and she’s grown like 5 inches just since the beginning of school. She’s gotten so big and smart and I just can’t believe that’s my little baby. I’m getting so old!! I will be 30 a month before she starts kindegarten and also our 10 year annivesary is around there too. I think it will be quite a time next year.