I think I’ve finally gotten a grip on the fact that M is leaving here. It has really upset me. I feel like there’s goign to be no one there for me in school; no one to tell everything to; no one to go everywhere with. It’s like she’s going to be in a whole new world. Talking to new people; riding with new people; dating different guys; different girls will be spending the night; a whole new crowd of people to put up with her stupid self. I just feel like I’m being abandoned. My friend S might be moving, M is, Scott won’t be with me in school, MF is in only to of my classes. I don’t know what to do!
What you should know now:
Don’t you love my use of semi-colons? Yes, that was really written like that in my journal. I was even a dork then.
M is the same M that is on my P2P players list and we are still friends. We’ve been friends since 3rd grade and still are. She ended up moving for a year (or two, can’t remember) and she did find new friends and did a bunch of new things with them that we never did together and we did grow apart some that year. But we got back on track when she got home. I think it’s interesting I found this one though, while going through St and Sh leaving the church. Apparently I don’t handle people “leaving me” very well.