I spoke too soon. I already cried tonight. At bedtime just now Emma got really quiet and she was in her thinking stare. I asked her what she was thinking about and she said how did you know I was thinking about something? I said I just did. She told me she didn’t want to go to school. I told her I she had to and asked if she was scared and I think she shook her head. I told her it’s just like preschool and she loved preschool. She said It’s just different. I asked her if there was something that she didn’t like or if it was just different and she said just different. I asked what was different and she said the playground is different. It has bikes and a hamburger (that’s what they call one of the sets). She said the classroom had computers. I said well isn’t that all good things? I tried to tell her different wasn’t bad and she liked school last year even though she had a different teacher. I tried to convince her that she’d love it. All while fighting back tears. Trying to convince my own self that this change is ok. They say kids are tough and can adapt to change well but I guess sometimes it’s hard for them too.
I was ok with this until she got nervous. I happily put her to bed and then came out to the kitchen and cried in the dark. Scott asked me earlier why I was stressed since I wasn’t the one going to school. I said, No, but a part of me is. Dang it, this mommying thing is hard.
And now you have me crying because of the tenderness of the moment and thinking about how much I love both of you and how much the two of you are so alike. Emma is like having you all over again, but I get to see you again almost like from a distance. Grandparenting is so special. Amy she will be fine and you know that deep inside, but go ahead and cry because a new season is beginning and an old one is disapearing. I am so excited because Emma absolutely loves learning! Just has you did! Once she gets over the initial fears she is going to love the challenges. Love you honey, Mom
Please give Emma our congratulations on her first day of Kindergarten. It is such a big step for both parents and kids that tears are inevitable. I’m sure that once Emma finds a buddy she will be more excited about the idea of going everyday and as you’ve said she needs the stimulation. Listen to the voice telling you that it will be fine as He will help you both with the change.
We’ll be praying for you all.
I promise you that she will be OK and actually probably LOVE it! Then, not be able to wait to go back the next day.
Hate to tell you this … it doesn’t get any easier … wait until you have to buy her a bra.
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You skedaddled out of there pretty quickly this morning, but rest assured that she was okay when we left a few minutes later. I gave her a little wave and told her to have fun, and she nodded at me in response. She wasn’t crying at that point – she was okay.
Meanwhile, my own daughter completely ignored me once we got in the classroom. She all but pushed me out the door and didn’t let me stick around enjoy the experience of her first day at school!
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That’s good to hear. I had to leave or I would have just made it worse crying in front of her. The longer I stay with her the more she wants me too. That’s awesome CG was so excited. I could have enjoyed the morning much more if Emma had been excited.