I’ve spent a some of the last week continuing to think about the end of next year. For those not caught up, my contract is ending at work. I touched on my worry in this random post a few weeks ago.
In some ways, I’m happy for the opportunity to stay at home. If you’re one of the ones that has read here for years, you know wanting to stay at home full time is nothing new. You’d think I’d be excited about it. By this time next year Lexi will be in Kindergarten and I know after-school care is not the end of the world. But I’ve done the (in-home) day care thing and I’ve done the at-home (work at home) thing and bottom line is I want to be the one that takes them to school and picks them up. Not to mention what to do about summers. I don’t begrudge anyone that does it. I’m not one to compare. But for me, I just don’t want to work full-time out of the house.
However, I’m not opposed to the idea of working. In fact, part of my concern is not having a job. The security. The money. The pride (in a good way). The health insurance. The money. The friends. The time away. The money. The coding (HA). I do like my job. I like having a job. So that part of me wants to continue working. And did I mention the money?
Today’s sermon was about fear and how sometimes fear is an opportunity to have a close encounter with God. I’ve heard Beth Moore say just because something is hard doesn’t mean it’s wrong. So I know this transition will be different for me. And I know we have a lot of decisions to make. The important thing is to not let the worry in. Don’t let it take over. Look for God in the next year. Realize that this IS an invitation for a close encounter with Him. I just need to keep my eyes open, my ears listening and remember once again…
Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Romans 8:28
28And we know that all things work together for good to those who love Him