“How did we even get here?” Scott stared at me with a blank face from his recliner. We were making our decision on the contractor and it suddenly hit us that we’ve been on a train called “Addition” and weren’t even sure how or when we got on.
“I don’t know,” I laughed.
And I really don’t. It seems just weeks ago we were just doing life and suddenly we’re going 90 mph ahead trying to get the house done and get started on our adoption process.
Yesterday we had to get off the train for a second and say, wait a minute. What are we doing? Where is this drive really coming from? Are we on the right train? Who’s leading this thing anyway?
I told Scott, “Listen, I feel like in a lot of ways I’ve been pushing you through all this and even though I’ve felt good about it, I want to know you’re in 100%. Just say the word and right now is the time to stop it all.” And it is. As early as next week we could be digging footings and what’s the point if we aren’t going to adopt? We’re at a serious crossroad right now. We either get back on this train and do it, and do it well, or we leave the station.
“Let me think about it,” he said and pushed the button on his PS3 controller to start another game.
It was hard walking away then. To not nag or prod. To list all the ways I thought God had orchestrated this. But this is the part where the wife submits. To let the responsibility lay with the husband. To trust that God would lay on his heart the same message. It’s not that Scott has been against this. Anyone that knows Scott would know he stops a train in its track with a heavy-duty “No” when he’s not into something. But I’m not sure he had committed to it.
Scott finished a few games and then left to get the kids. When he got back he told me we had an appointment with our chosen contractor the next day.
“So I guess we’re doing this?” I tried to confirm.
Scott leaned down on the floor to pick up a piece of grass, “Yeah, I think we should do it.”
So we are. All aboard. This is about to get crazy.
I am very excited for you guys 🙂 Can’t wait to see the addition as it continues.
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So exciting! 🙂
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Yay!
I am so proud of you. Not for the addition, but how you have learned to “become one”, “operate as a couple”. I was laughing when Scott said let me think about it and then pushed the PS3 player and you walked away! Good girl! So many women don’t get that…..men need time and it’s usually through doing something that seems so frivilous to us women. And the point too was that that big of a decision, if it was right then, it would be right the next day and you showed him the respect that he needed as a man. Love, mom
That definitely would have been hard to walk away from, but you did it! SO many of us need to learn to let our hubby’s lead the way {me included}. Being a control freak kinda gets in the way of things sometimes. lol
So excited for y’all!
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So excited for you guys!!
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Thanks for taking us along for the ride!
Well, I’m impressed at your pace! The week you started blogging about this was the week that we also coincidentally started making plans to add on to our house, and we haven’t even started to look for an architect! (plus I suspect our local government application process could take a while, once we are up to that stage…). Good for you!
I guess part of me is scared to get on the train ….
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