And last night was another mini-meltdown by Lexi. A family friend had invited her on an outing this morning but when I said I’d be home all day, she wanted to stay home. Even giving up a meal at McDonald’s! When I clarified that I’d be home, but would have to work, she lost it and just shouted, “Now I don’t know what to do! I wanted to spend time with just me and yooo-uuuu!!” So we worked it out that she would go on the outing and then her and I would definitely do something with just the two of us later. I can’t tell you how much that squeezes my heart dry.
Thank you for all your support and prayers on yesterday’s post. I joined you in prayer last night and finally feel like I got a smidgeon of a word. He said, “Hang in there. Don’t quit yet,” and of course he finished it off with, “Don’t worry about the kids. They are FINE.” I wasn’t sure whether to roll my eyes or laugh. In any case when he said they were fine, it felt ok.
So don’t quit praying, we’re going to have to figure out this last month of summer somehow. I do believe once school hits, this won’t be such an issue. And if you have any great ideas on things we can do during our one-on-one time, I’d be grateful. Until then, I guess I’ll go New Kids on the Block style and hang tough.
She’s used to things being a certain way and now that way has changed. I worry about how my kids will react whenever I finally do get back to work, because they’ve gotten used to me always being here. If it were me, I think I would stick it out a bit longer…once she’s back in school and her days are filled up with other things, she might be okay with it.
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Amy I agree with Stacey. You know how Lexi is OCD about stuff and I think this is no exception. Just know that my heart is being double squeezed since you are my daughter and she is my granddaughter. I have been praying about this for months and just yesterday I was thinking about this even before I knew about the meltdown and was thinking and feeling exactly what Stacey just wrote. she is not being neglected by you or left out. As a matter of fact, because I know how well you do things she is probably getting just as much needed attention from you now as she would be if you were just home. Kids wine and breakdown for stay at home moms too. “I’m bored”, “There’s nothing to do” Don’t let this bring you down!! You’re a great mom! Just think what single moms/dads go through. Both girls are spoiled with your attention and because one of your love languages is Quality Time, I think this pulls on your heart strings even more. They are OK Amy, actually more than ok. She’s throwing a temper tantrum of sorts and she’s winning. Stop being so hard on your self. God will use all of this.
Love you!
Mom
OK, kind of unrelated but you really think my love language is Quality Time? I always thought that was last on the list.
Honestly, I think *I* am having a hard time with the change too so I guess I get how she’s feeling and want things back to the way they were. I’m a homebody too so I suppose my heart goes out a little more.