Wednesday is the official day. I go and register Emma for kindergarten. I know I’m going to be such a cry baby about this whole thing. I was even thinking the other day that Emma won’t be with Lexi and I at lunchtime anymore. When Scott is off, she won’t be around to go run errands with us. It makes me teary eyed thinking of it!
So here’s my big stress points with this whole thing.
#1 Lunch. I have no idea why this makes me nervous but it does. I just keep picturing her having trouble putting her straw in a Caprisun and being too shy to ask for help. And then she doesn’t eat and she’s starving when she gets home and she tells me she what happened and then I realize she’s starving because she hasn’t eaten ALL DAY. Yeah, I know I’m freakin out a bit but I just want to be there to help her. As aggravating as it is to be asked 30 times a day to do something for her, I’m really, really going to miss it. OMG, I’m crying! See, this is not going to be good. It’s FIVE MONTHS before school starts and I’M CRYING. People tell me there are lunch workers and parents and teachers that will help so I’m trying to calm myself.
#2 Transportation. I’m stressing a bit about all the driving I’m going to have to do with Lexi in one place and Emma in another and all at different times during the day. I’ve thought about the bus but then I REALLY stress thinking of news stories of bus accidents. I don’t understand why there are no seatbelts in those things! For now, the bus is out. Emma wants no part in it and really I don’t either for now. We’re three minutes away from the school and Scott will be able to help out doing the driving so I’m just going with it for now. Maybe if she had an older girl in the neighborhood that could look out for her, I’d be ok. I know that has nothing to do with bus accidents but I don’t know, I just can’t handle the bus thing right now.
#3 What she’ll encounter. I’m nervous about what she’ll learn from other students that may have a bad family deal and rub off a bad attitude or maybe some bad words off on Emma. I know she’s just going to have to deal with that and learn to cope because one day she’ll be in the big, bad world and have to learn it eventually but I just don’t know if I’m ready for all these conversations we’re probably going to have to have. And I know I’m probably stressing about middle school and not kindergarten but I’m just being honest here.
And then there’s the whole school shooting/bomb thing that I think every parent must at least think about. It’s scary and it’s real.
#4 The crack of dawn morning. I have no idea how we are going to get up early enough for Emma to be at school. Right now we all roll out of bed around 8 for them to be at preschool by 9 and getting to school at 7:30 right now just sounds painful. I know we just have to go to bed earlier and get up earlier but I like my late nights, people.
#5 Lexi by herself. Lexi is really going to miss Emma. She will be in preschool but after school, she won’t know what to do with herself. Lexi can go into her own little world but most of the time. Emma and Lexi are attached at the hip. There’s definitely going to be some adjustment there.
Yes, I’ve thought about homeschooling. I know I just can’t do it with my job. I’m not that much of a supermom. If I quit working, I may think more seriously about it but even then I’m so not equipped to teach Emma. I know we have one of the best schools you can have and I’m proud of that looking forward to her learning but I don’t know. I think I would be happy with Emma home for just a little longer.
These are the days I relish…now you know how I feel and felt!!!! And one day when they are really in middle school and acting like you are the worst or at least making you feel like you are the worst mother….You will really cry! M
I am a teacher, or was … I don’t teach anymore, but just pray that she gets a great Christian teacher. I would pray for my students before I even met them and most teachers have a genuine love for the children in their class. The teacher will most definitely help with the juice box straw and will begin to love your child as she gets to know her. By the end of the school year, I would cry at the thought of these kids that I poured myself into would be leaving me and would their next teacher love them as much as me and know how to take care of them like me. Anyway, don’t worry … just pray. And the crying is natural … she’s your baby.
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Thanks, Daphne, that helps! I know she will be just fine when she gets into it. She absolutely loves preschool and loves her teachers. And they of course love the girls too.
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I posted on your wfmw, but wanted to give you a little more encouragement. You daughter will be fine. You will be fine. You will be suprised how much your other daughter will enjoy having time alone with you. She will miss big sister, but will relish her time as well. It’s interesting how much the younger sibling’s personality over shadows the little ones. Since my oldest went to school I have been able to get to know my younger dd better. I’ve been able to spend individual time with her and see her own personality come out. She will thrive on being the one who determines what she gets to do at home and will welcome big sister home with open arms.
You dd will experience many new things including things that you don’t agree with and with other kids environments. That is a tough one. My dd was especially effected by on troubled boy in her class. She would talk about his behavior when she would come home from school. I asked her how she responded to him. She was positive towards him. She accepted him and looked for the good in him. She even prayed for him at night, and before school. We talk about how the other kids act and react and why. I continue to encourage her to look for the good in people and to be a good influence on others.
Most schools and teachers encourage parents to come into the classroom for a visit. Take advantage of it that way you can see all the kids and how the teachers interact with them. I happened to be in the school visiting my dd class when there was a lock down drill. I was actually glad I was there for it. It gave me a better idea of how they handle that sort of thing.
Mostly, just pray for your daughter to have a great experience in school. Heavenly Father will look over her and out for her and allow her (and you) to experience what she needs to. Pray for yourself to be inspired to know what she needs. Feel free to email me. {{{hugs}}}
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